Thursday, April 30, 2009

I've been slacking

But it's never a dull moment around here.

MIL will have her lumpectomy on 5/15 to see if the cancer spread.

Every May Pampered Chef has their "Help Whip Cancer" campaign and sell pink items and a portion of those sales goes towards breast cancer research. I'm trying to find a time to have a party, I hope every will think about buying something to help support breast cancer research.

I had Parent/Teacher conference with Baby Girl's preschool teacher. Nothing but praise for her as "she's a blessing to have in class". Very ready for 5K. That's exciting.

Things progress with Patrick's affairs, slowly, but there is progression.

Little Man was moved into a big boy bed a few weeks ago. He loves it.

My sister borrowed my car over the weekend (she didn't have a ride home from work Friday and called, so I sent Gumby to pick her up and told him to just give her the car since she also worked Saturday. Heh.)

The accident wasn't her fault. The driver behind her wasn't paying attention and rear-ended her going at least 35 mph. She called, hysterical.

Thank God she was OK. I had to explain the car could be replaced, she could not be. My car was a total loss. And of course the driver at fault gave insurance information that was wrong, so now we suspect the car was uninsured. Lovely.

I feel awful for my sister though.

Other than that, I've got the Swing Flu (aka a cold for the dramatic). We are off to buy our new car this afternoon, another Maxima, just 2 years newer. Wooo.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Random Monday Thoughts

I'm on the mailing list for a nearby church. We've never attended services there, but it seems like such a wonderful community there, though a different faith. Of course, I personally think God doesn't care what flavor you pick, just do right.

Anyway. Today's email said they have a labyrinth walk. Which struck me as the last only time I saw a true labyrinth was on our honeymoon in Florida, nearly 9 years ago.

Gumby and I travel very oddly. We have days with set things to accomplish. We have other days that we have nothing planned and may just drive and see where the road/wind takes us. That particular day, I saw a grove of orange and grapefruit trees leading down a road. I told Gumby to drive down it, having never seen an orange tree up close and personal.

The road lead to a cemetery and mausoleum, but they also had the labyrinth. I had never seen a real one before and was interested. I read the "instructions".

And of course, forced Gumby to do it with me. I cleared my mind and we started to walk. What was interesting was the revelation that came to me. Gumby and I would pass each other as we walked, sometimes we were nearly on top of each other, other times we were on opposite sides of the labyrinth, but we were always on the same path, with the same end-goal.

And it was there I realized that both in our religious experiences and in our marriage, there will be times we will be completely in sync and others we are light years away, but our end-goal is always the same and we're on the same path. We just do it at our own pace. And that's OK.

That was a defining moment in my life. Such a grown-up through for someone pretending to be a grown-up.

Anyway, I'd be interested in experiencing the labyrinth, but almost wonder if it will be a letdown after my 1st experience. Of course, it helps that my first experience was outside, 80 degrees and sunny as all get-out, heh.

My MIL's cancer spread to her "clear" breast. There was a 3/4" *spot* with clear margins, but that's not good. Her cancer is a very aggressive, nasty kind. It has been lazy in her left breast, remaining in her milk ducts, which is good. But it must have gotten bored and moved to the right breast in a very short time (as the PET scan and mammogram had been clear 2 months earlier).

We will learn tomorrow the game plan. Obviously the lymph nodes on the right have to come out to see if the cancer spread there (thank God she had the double mastectomy right away). If the cancer has spread to the lymph nodes, well, it's going to be ugly. If it hadn't, I'm not sure what the game plan is, but probably not pleasant.

I'm trying to be there as much as possible while she heals from the 1st surgery. It allows my FIL to leave and do errands/get out of the house. Plus the kids entertain my MIL to no end, so that's a bonus.

I had an odd shopping day. I went to Sendik's to get produce and such. So much better than the crap at PNS and cheaper too. Sweet yellow peppers were on sale, so I got Baby Girl a pack, she'll be happy. Some beautiful strawberries and grapes. Yum.

But then I went to Sam's Club. I hate Sam's Club and Wal-Mart. Let's face it, we are mildly poor, so I shop there to save money on things like bottled water (and the french bread is so freakin' good and cheap). And it's a completely different experience than Sendik's, where everyone says hello to me and asks if I need help. I miss that service. Which is also why I shop at Sendiks.

I feel so bad for those that say Sendik's is so much more expensive. OK, yeah, if it's not on sale, it probably is a bit more on grocery staples. But I guarantee the produce is not only better, but it will be less expensive. Same thing for the meat.

Prime example. I always get the kids the Stonyfield Yogurt. I was excited when PNS started carrying it in most of the stores. $4.49 for a 8 pack of the squeeze-able stuff. $3.49 at Sendik's. I buy that crap like it's going out of style, totally worth it to go to Sendik's. I realized this about 6 months ago and haven't looked back. There's very little I go to PNS for anymore (or I go there if I'm doing late shopping, Sendik's closes at either 9 or 10 PM).

Well, I must dash to retrieve my children.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

I think the snail got stepped on

Well, spring is still approaching at a snail's pace. Actually, I'm fairly certain the snail got stepped on, so now it's kinda stuck. It snowed last weekend and I think it's going to again this weekend. *sigh*

The kicker is that Little Man destroyed the zipper in his Land's End parka, so I took it in this week to get it repaired. Takes 6 weeks to get it back. Any why couldn't I have waited another few weeks? Thankfully I have a "spring" jacket from Land's End that is mostly warm enough.

I'm finding myself stuck in a bit of a rut. I'm back in the bad habit of staying up much too late, making it increasingly difficult to get up when I should. I find myself searching for answers that I know I won't find. I hope to find some shread of light, but mostly the answers are contained within a few select people. And unfortunately, at this point, they are not inclined to share a damn thing with me to protect themselves.

We should have a police report this week in regards to Patty's death. The reality of that is both a relief (to have answers) and a curse (to have those answers and know what happened).