Friday, July 27, 2012

Day 16 : Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Dead brother-in-laws.  Or maybe a more accurate thing would be drunk drivers.  Because they certainly suck monkey-ass on many levels.

Child abusers.


Day 15 : Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

A car.  I don't care how lame or materialistic that is, but it's true.  A car can take me to my family.  Gives me the option to leave a place when I need to protect myself.  Let's me drive late at night with Gumby with the windows down, listening to music.  A car facilitates so much.  I hated not having one.

Day 14 : A hero that has let you down. (letter)

Dear Hero -


Signed -


Yes.  This one is a cop-out.  But I'm not going there.  And I know who it's addressed to.  And I know that writing a letter to anyone else would have been dishonest.  So get over it.

Day 13 : A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Dear Dave Matthews Band -

You have been an inspiration to me for many years.  Like way more years than I want to admit, because that would really show my age ;)

But I can specifically remember losing the first pregnancy.  I remember most people wanted to ignore it.  Or tell me it would be alright.  Except it wasn't going to be alright.  I had made up my mind that I wanted that child more than anything else and would protect it.  And here I couldn't even protect it from my own body.  I remember driving under the "Whale Wall" here, sobbing, listening to "Lie in our Graves" and suddenly it hit me.  I couldn't spend the rest of my days mourning.  I was letting life pass me by.  It was OK to mourn, to be sad at the loss of life.  But I needed to celebrate it too.

And I'm not going to lie and say I was suddenly OK, but it let me start to move on.  To not be focused on the loss, but rather what was to come.

So thank you for that.