Day 07 - Someone who has made your life worth living for

I actually have a number of people that have made life worth living.  Gumby, of course.  Our kids, most obviously.

But during the dark times, it was a combination of my maternal Grandparents and my best friend's Mom.  My Grandparents always had my back during that time and I knew their house was safe from the madness.

My best friend's Mom for showing me life gets better.  For talking to me like a grown up and respecting my feelings, but also not being afraid of telling me to pull my head out of my ass.  For being that cool Mom.

We all understood the phrase, "everything in life is a choice".  But she really got me to understand circumstances do not make the person.  The choices that person makes is what makes them.  Good or bad.  Thankfully I've made *mostly* good choices.

Day 06 - Something you hope you never have to do

Really?  We're gonna go there, huh?

Bury either of my children.  Because no parent should have to do that.  Even the shitty parents.

Ahem....

So some assmunches (is that the correct plural of assmunch?) stole my laptop back in August. Along with a bunch of other stuff, but the laptop is most important in this case because it had all my 30 days of truths on it. And I got a little busy in there. All that parenting, working, Sick mother-in-lawing, wifing shit got in the way of blogging. Damn it.

Alas, I have passed all my certifications, I have taken over the Tiger Cub Den as Den leader and I just keep truckin with the whole sick mother-in-law thing.

Her breast cancer returned in the lymph nodes. And we learned this week that the spot on her lung is indeed cancer.  She has it in 3 different areas.  The plan is for another 4 rounds of Chemo and then treatment with hormone therapy.

I'd like this to be done and the best possible outcome. Seriously. No more death or sickness. Just happiness and peace.

My Dad had his rotator cuff repaired. So he's been a little gimpy, but progressing nicely.  Still freaks you out to see your Dad all bundled up in medical stuff in the house.  ACK!

Life is always an adventure.  I'm 36 now.  I don't *feel* 36.  I still feel like I'm in my mid-20's.  My Dad and I were discussing it and he said that he thinks you reach a certain point of higher consciousness and self-awareness and you stop growing at that point.  For him it was 19, for me I think it was 29.  When I became a parent to 2 children, that was it.  I think I've grown since then, but not in any leaps and bounds.  Now it's just about keeping it all in perspective (or as Dory says, "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming".)

I'm fortunate to have the most wonderful people that love me.  Life always has surprises.  Friends come and friends go.  But the true friends that you love and love you back almost always find a way back into your life.  And I can appreciate that right now.

New Spanish words/phrases learned this week:

pendejo
No vale madre

There were others, but that's all I can remember right now (and really, pendejo is my favorite thus far, because I say that a lot in English).

Now, let's see if I can track down the rest of the 30 days of truth.....

30 Days of Truth - Day 5

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.


Interesting.  This could be taken one of many ways.  But I'm going with a Master's degree.  


I hope to travel a lot more.  I want to go back to Europe and explore that more.  I'd love to go to Africa, Asia, Australia, South America, etc.  Basically, I'm greedy in the area of travel.  I want to learn all I can and experience it all.  I'd love to see the Christ the Redeemer statue, etc.


I hope to see our children graduate from college; see them married and have children.


I hope to be a good person and an even better mother and wife.

30 Days of Truth - Day 4

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.


Well, the obvious answer is to forgive Jason for taking Patrick away from us.  But I think I really did forgive him last February.  It's honestly not been an issue for me since then.


So is this a cop-out answer?  A little bit.  But I'll try harder tomorrow.

30 Days of Truth - Day 3

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.


Not being the perfect wife/mother.  I try.  But my house is way messier than I'd like.  I have dog hair goobers all over.  I lose patience.  I sometimes yell.  


All in all, it could be a million times worse, but then again, there's a lot of room for improvement.  I feel like I owe them all so much more for the love and joy they give me.

30 Days of Truth - Day 2

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself


Thankfully, I'm not afraid to love things about myself just as easily as I hate things about myself. 


My sense of humor.  How awesome I am.  I generally succeed at most things I try (knitting being a glaring exception.  The Devil's craft, I tell you)


I try to laugh a lot daily.


I love my freckles and my eyes.  I love how Gumby looks at me when I'm all dressed up and how I get a completely different look when I'm dirty from head to toe and look like a complete tom-boy (completely different, but still means the same thing as the aforementioned dressed up look.  He's easy ;)


I love that my 30 days of truth stretched into almost 300 days of truth.  I've been lacking her on the writing scene since I started the new job.


That's the other thing I love about myself.  I embrace this job and OWN IT.  It's is awesome.  Which means, I'm sure, it will change and no longer be awesome, but I will love until I can love it no more.